35%

Sobrang nakakahiya.. This is my pinaka-mababang grade in Physio exam.

Gastro. This should be so easy… pero I flunked it. 35% lang nakuha ko. You know, before, hinding hindi ako natutuwa na meron akong bagsak na grades…

Kasi, hindi ako nag-aral. Hindi ako nag-aral, kasi nag-facebook ako.. Nag- internet ako. I should have aced it.

Pero, I ate goto naman yesterday sa Shobee, hindi ko alam kung anong part ng intestine yun.. I should have asked the waiter.. tsk. But I didn’t.

Sa totoo lang, dapat nag-aaral ako ng mabuti.. Pero hindi ko naman ginagawa.

Kakayanin ko pa ba? Kaya ko pa ba? My brother reminded me last night, last chance ko na.. Mag-me-med na siya next year.

at wag ko raw kalimutan yung meds ko for my heart burn. |sigh|

Birthday din pala ni A., kahapon, hindi ko siya nagreet. Nagkabanggaan lang mga mata namin.. Pero, kinailangan na namin umalis ni Monica at ni Thea for the test.

Sigeee. please pray for me na lang ah. At late na naman ako for my class. Kailangan ko na namang tumakbo. Sige.

During my research finals and Psych LE3 make up

I was sitting in front of Computer 59, when I saw my classmate, J.A. praying on my left side. He is really very studious and he is really performing well in class. And take note: he’s not a Cum Laude, when he was in his college years. He has a girlfriend who is also in San Beda Med school, who excels in her batch as well. They are both doing well and supporting each other.

You know, I somehow felt a sudden pierce in my heart, because I’m a Christian, What?? Am I really?? But Christ is not evident in how I live my life. I don’t go regularly to church anymore. I don’t pray that much anymore. I always feel down. I’m not studying well.

Just simply slacking. Those were the minutes and hours that I could never get back. And just to be clear.. I really do want to become a doctor. But hello?? Are my actions congruent with what I want to attain?

You know, while I was reading the test questions… It took me a long time to fully understand and analyze. I can’t absorb. Maybe because I didn’t study. I did not study. Stupid diba? I was plainly relying on my stock knowledge. But do I have? Haha.

But you know, It doesn’t work that way. I’ve proven it. And guess what, I failed my exam. I lacked 2 points for me to pass. It’s 30% of my final grade.

But even though, I still passed my research subject. So, thank you God!

Then, there’s my Psych LE3, same story. I did not pass. Take note: the questions were about sexuality and about children and homosexuals. How humiliating. The doctor proctor asked me after my test and told me..
“Doc, Maganda? Maganda?” I know he was somehow concerned. But ofcourse, hindi maganda!!! Aaah. I was walking towards the door, when I bumped into the shelf. Then what I said was, “Sorry”. Haha. I went out, but didn’t look back.
Seriously, I need a slap on my face. On both cheeks, pwede?

I’m obviously not happy! Too much talk, not enough action.

So, can you give me two slaps?

Baka sakaling magising na ako sa katotohanan.

Dear self

Don’t make decisions based on what you feel.
Make decisions based on facts.

Don’t stress the small stuff. Stop worrying too, it’s a waste of time. Also, don’t think too much, you’ll create a problem that was never there. Why not feed your faith and not your doubts and worries? You can do this! 🙂 Aja!

Never can say goodbye

How Ironic. Hahaha. LORD, help me remove my sighs. My worries.  You are in control. Everything under Your control, is never out of control. This I know. If I need that goodbye. Help me not to look back. Thank You! Help me not to look back.

Alright. Now I’m being stupid. I posted this by the way, because I like the song.

Gloria Gaynor – Never Can Say Goodbye Lyrics

I never can say goodbye
No, no, no I, I never can say goodbye
Every time I think I’ve had enough
And start heading for the door
There’s a very strange vibration
Kissing me right to the core or pericing me right to the core

It says turn around you fool,
You know you love him more
And more
Tell me why is it so?
Don’t wanna let you go

I never can say goodbye boy
Ooh ooh baby I never can say goodbye
No no no no no no
Ooh hey I never can say goodbye, boy
Ooh ooh baby
I never can say goodbye
[No no no no no no] hey

I never can say goodbye [never say goodbye, boy]
Oh no, no, no I, I never can say goodbye
[never say goodbye, boy]
I keep thinking that our problems soon are all gonna work
Out
But there’s that same unhappy feeling,
There’s that anguish, there’s that doubt
It’s that same old dizzy hangup
I can’t do with you or without or you’ve had with you all your life
Tell me why is it so? I don’t wanna let you go
I never can say goodbye boy, ooh baby
I never can say goodbye, no no no no no no
Hey I never can say goodbye boy, ooh baby
I never can say goodbye, no no no no no no

I never can say goodbye, boy,
I never can say goodbye, no no no no no no
I never can say goodbye, boy
I never can say goodbye, no no no no no no
[Never can say goodbye, boy]
[Never can say goodbye, boy]

I never can say goodbye, boy
I never can say goodbye, no no no no no no
I never can say goodbye, boy
I never can say goodbye, no no no no no no

Ooh ooh ooh hey I never can say goodbye, boy
No no no baby hey never can say goodbye
No no no no please, don’t make me say goodbye
Hey I will never say goodbye, no baby
Oh please don’t leave me, no no no no
Hey oh I can’t say goodbye, boy
No no no baby
Oh please don’t oooh, baby

Songwriters: Clifton Davis
Never Can Say Goodbye lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC

There is, however…

There is, however, another kind of love, a much darker and sadder kind of love.

It’s the love one feels when one loves someone he or she can never and will never have.

It’s the kind of love that doesn’t signal the beginning of something beautiful, but rather the end of something that might have been beautiful, but will never amount to anything more than what it is.

 

Sad sad sad.

But if it’s for the best, Thy will be done.

Beautiful things

All this pain
I wonder if I’ll ever find my way
I wonder if my life could really change at all
All this earth
Could all that is lost ever be found
Could a garden come up from this ground at all

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

All around
Hope is springing up from this old ground
Out of chaos life is being found in You

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

You make me new, You are making me new
You make me new, You are making me new

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

—-
I like this song. I remembered someone from this song. LORD, I pray for her.
Actually, she’s one of the Christians that I really admire. She’s becoming more beautiful day by day. She posted this song one time.. I remembered.

Oceans

You call me out upon the waters
The great unknown where feet may fail
And there I find You in the mystery
In oceans deep
My faith will stand

And I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine

Your grace abounds in deepest waters
Your sovereign hand
Will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me
You’ve never failed and You won’t start now

So I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine

[3x]
Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior

I will call upon Your name
Keep my eyes above the waves
My soul will rest in Your embrace
I am Yours and You are mine