Consoled

Nica, I feel the same way. Thank you for this post. God bless you. Indeed God consoles us in our desert moments. I actually questioned myself too.. Why I can’t get along with certain groups of people. You are beautiful and a nice person and friendly at the same time. I hope to know you more and be your friend. I’m glad you have a blog too in WordPress. 🙂

This is something I made 3 years ago…IMG_6279
Every one needs comfort, especially in the era that we live in.
No one is exempted from all the challenges, difficulties, disappointments, trials, tragedy, worries and rejections in life-no one.

I myself, experienced such challenges and difficulties
I have tried to deal with them, but I ended up breaking down, crying and hurting of all untoward incidents in life.

I believe that I have set a high moral standards which leads me to many disappointments, rejection and loneliness.

Most of the time, people misjudged me and treated me unkind.
I reflected and meditated several questions to myself, ” what have I done that people treated me this way? Why cant I get along with some group of people? Why cant they accept me as I am?” These questions hunted and troubled me for years- I want to find out the answers, as…

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The Hurts You Never Knew

I love how KZ sang this song. It is in Mandarin. Though I could not understand what she was singing, I truly felt the song. It hurts.

I am so amazed how talented KZ Tandingan as she sang this song with so much feelings at Singer Competition in China, when she competed with Jessie J and other Chinese singers. God bless you KZ! I am a fan.

To be able to convey the meaning of a song beyond your own language is really exemplary. KZ is really a gifted artist to behold.

Complete lyrics

你還要我怎樣 要怎樣 
nǐ hái yào wǒ zěn yàng yào zěn yàng
What do you want me to do, what to do?
你突然來的短信就夠我悲傷
nǐ tú rán lái de duǎn xìn jiù gòu wǒ bēi shāng
You suddenly texting me which is enough to make me sad
我沒能力遺忘 你不用提醒我
wǒ méi néng lì yí wàng nǐ bù yòng tí xǐng wǒ
I can't forget you, please don't remind me
nǎpà jiéjú jiù zhèyàng
Even if it ends like this
我還能怎樣 能怎樣
wǒ hái néng zěnyàng néng zěnyàng
What can I do, what can I do?
最後還不是落得情人的立場
zuìhòu hái bùshì luòde qíngrén de lìchǎng
At end, still can't become special person
你從來不會想 我何必這
nǐ cóng lái bu huì xiǎng wǒ hébì zhèyàng
You never want to, why I like this?
要伤心多久 我才能看透
yao shang xin duo jiu wo cai neng kan tou
I want to be sad to see through
离开你多久 手才会放松
li kai ni duo jiu shou cai hui fang song
How long will it take before you relax?
是否我在你的心里还有一点痛
shi fou wo zai ni de xin li hai you yi dian tong
Whether I have a little bit of pain in your heart
爱情随风 心彻底放纵
ai qing sui feng xin che di fang zong
Heart wind completely indulgent love
让自己疯
rang zi ji feng
Let yourself be crazy

Chorus Part:
你還要我怎樣 要怎樣
nǐ hái yào wǒ zěnyàng yào zěnyàng
What do you want to me to do, what to do?
你突然來的短信就夠我悲傷
nǐ túrán lái de duǎnxìn jiù gòu wǒ bēishāng
You suddenly texting me which enough to make me sad
我沒能力遺忘 你不用提醒我
wǒ méi nénglì yíwàng nǐ bùyòng tíxǐng wǒ
I can't forget you, please don't remind me
哪怕結局就這樣
nǎpà jiéjú jiù zhèyàng
Even if it ends like this
我還能怎樣 能怎樣
wǒ hái néng zěnyàng néng zěnyàng
What can I do, what can I do?
最後還不是落得情人的立場
zuìhòu hái bùshì luòde qíngrén de lìchǎng
At end, still can't become special person
你從來不會想 我何必這
nǐ cóng lái bu huì xiǎng wǒ hébì zhèyàng
You never want to, why I like this?
要伤心多久 我才能看透
yao shang xin duo jiu wo cai neng kan tou
I want to be sad to see through
离开你多久 手才会放松
li kai ni duo jiu shou cai hui fang song
How long will it take before you relax?
是否我在你的心里还有一点痛
shi fou wo zai ni de xin li hai you yi dian tong
Whether I have a little bit of pain in your heart
爱情随风 心彻底放纵
ai qing sui feng xin che di fang zong
Heart wind completely indulgent love
让自己疯 rang zi ji feng
Let yourself be crazy

Chorus Part:
你還要我怎樣 要怎樣
nǐ hái yào wǒ zěnyàng yào zěnyàng
What do you want to me to do, what to do?
你突然來的短信就夠我悲傷
nǐ túrán lái de duǎnxìn jiù gòu wǒ bēishāng
You suddenly texting me which enough to make me sad
我沒能力遺忘 你不用提醒我
wǒ méi nénglì yíwàng nǐ bùyòng tíxǐng wǒ
I can't forget you, please don't remind me
哪怕結局就這樣
nǎpà jiéjú jiù zhèyàng
Even if it ends like this
我還能怎樣 能怎樣
wǒ hái néng zěnyàng néng zěnyàng
What can I do, what can I do?
最後還不是落得情人的立場
zuìhòu hái bùshì luòde qíngrén de lìchǎng
At end, still can't become special person
你從來不會想 我何必這
nǐ cóng lái bu huì xiǎng wǒ hébì zhèyàng
You never want to, why I like this?
你還要我怎樣 要怎樣
nǐ hái yào wǒ zěn yàng yào zěn yàng
What do you want me to do, what to do?
你千萬不要在我婚禮的現場
nǐ qiān wàn bù yào zài wǒ hūn lǐ de xiàn chǎng
You must not attend my wedding
我聽完你愛的歌 就上了車
wǒ tīng wán nǐ ài de gē jiù shàng le chē
I listened to the song that you loved on my car
愛過你很值得
ài guò nǐ hěn zhí dé
Loving you was worth it
我不要你怎樣 沒怎樣
wǒ bù yào nǐ zěn yàng méi zěn yàng
I don't want you do something, do something
我陪你走的路你不能忘
wǒ péi nǐ zǒu de lù nǐ bù néng wàng
I accompany you to the road you can not forget
多的是 你不知道的事
Duo de shi Ni bu zi dao de shi
So many things you never knew

Notice To Explain

It’s been almost six months since I was hired at St. Luke’s. I have started at 3 West and now I’m in 3 Main A, I have been floated to 2 Main B as well. 3 west and 3 Main A are areas for pediatric patients. While 2 Main B is a unit for Mothers and Babies. I love Pediatrics! I’m very thankful for all the learning and new found friends I have met along the way of staying in St. Luke’s Quezon City.

I really like working at St. Luke’s Medical Center (SLMC). I love the environment compared to the previous hospitals where I performed my job as a nurse.

I even thought of staying for long term if God’s will, but I need to help my sister’s funding for her education, because she wants to become a medical doctor and I am the eldest in the family. So I need to be dependable a few years from now. I might most probably work abroad to save money as the ‘ate’ in my family.

I am so blessed to be part of the Lukan family. I thank all the doctors, residents and nurses that I have worked with. They inspire me to keep doing what I can. Although, I am not claiming a perfect work. I commit mistakes too.

Moreover, working at the hospital is no joke. I make sure that I still keep my mind sane with all the stress and the challenges and the sick people I am around with. That is why I do the things that I love such as writing, looking at photos in Pinterest, taking selfies, doing my part-time business, exercise with boxing and swimming, and by reading verses using the bible I bought myself a year ago and by using the bible app whenever I am not in the hospital working as a nurse. It’s like I need to be a ray of sunshine everyday as I enter the rooms of my patients. Although it is very tiring, I am loving my job. I love my work and I love that I am being a channel of God’s healing with my patients.

I pray that I would continuously be a vessel of God’s healing as I touch and give care to my patients.

To my managers, residents and senior nurses, thank you for being patient with me. Thank you for guiding me along the way. I hope to make less error to none in the next succeeding months of my stay in St. Luke’s. It’s difficult but I know I can make it. I am hoping to become a regular nurse soon. I have been praying for it and it’s almost within reach. Thank you God for everything. Please guide me and I ask for wisdom as I do my duties daily. Thank You God. I know You will answer my prayers in Your time and as I delight in You. I will wait patiently. God’s will be done in my life.